Friday, September 27, 2024

Poems from "The Rainy Bread" in Bialystok at "Generations Remember" Conference, September 2024

Reading from The Rainy Bread at the Kresy Syberia Foundation's conference 
Generations Remember, 20 September 2024, Sybir Memorial Museum, Bialystok

When Churchill and Roosevelt "sold" Eastern Europe, including Poland to Stalin, and the country lost 48% of its lands, cut off at the River Bug, as well as millions of residents were forcibly displaced, it was hard to guess that the consequences of this betrayal would last for so long and make such an indelible imprint on the collective memory of the nation, its demographics, and its fate. For 50 years Soviet troops were stationed in Poland. For 50 years nobody could publicly say in Poland that 22,000 Polish officers and leaders were murdered by Soviets in Katyn forest. For 50 years, the displaced persons, forcibly removed from their homes, and exiled or resettled into former homes of Germans moved to Federal Republic of Germany, were struggling to rebuild their lives and preserve the memory of the tragedy that impoverished them, cut off their Polish roots, destroyed traces of their homes in what has become Belarus and Ukraine. 

Pink - current borders, red outline - 1919 to 1039 borders, blue outline - one of the proposals for borders in 1945.

While my maternal grandparents and my mother narrowly escaped deportation and / or death in Baranowicze (now in Belarus) where my Mom was born in 1929, many members of the extended family were deported either during the war, or afterwards. Ciocia Tonia Antonina Glinska ended up in a settlement on the shores of the mighty Yenisey river in the middle of Siberia, and returned with one surviving son in the 1950s.  Ciocia Jadzia Jadwiga Hordziejewska was deported with her husband and children from their estate near the mythical lake of Switez to a cramped apartment in  Gdansk Oliva, a building pocked by bullets. Ciocia Irena de Belina and her brother went with Anders Army to Iran, Mexico and ended up in Chicago. ... 

After the death of my parents, I decided to transform fragmented memories of their stories into poems, since I forgot or distorted many details.  This gave rise to the book "Slicing the Bread" followed by "The Rainy Bread" 2016 and 2021 editions, and a Polish translation of selected poems "Deszczowy Chleb." I discussed these poems on my blog "Chopin with Cherries" https://chopinwithcherries.blogspot.com/2021/01/portraits-of-survivors-babcia-prababcia.html, posted selected poems from 2016 and 2021 versions on Moonrise Press Blog. 

https://moonrisepress.blogspot.com/2016/08/the-rainy-bread-poems-of-exile-of-poles.html (2016)

https://moonrisepress.blogspot.com/2021/04/the-rainy-bread-poems-from-exile-by.html (2021).

Then I  posted some original and translated poems on a recent Moonrise Press blog (2024): 

https://moonrisepress.blogspot.com/2024/08/deszczowy-chleb-polish-version-of-40.html

On 20 September 2024, I presented 12 poems from the second version of "The Rainy Bread" with Polish translations in the slides during the Generations Remember conference organized by the Kresy Syberia Foundation and the Sybir Memorial Museum in Bialystok, Poland. There were about 30 people at the reading, mostly children of the WWII-era deportees, who ended up in the U.K, , U.S, Canada or Australia.  My reading followed the keynote presentation by the Museum's director Professor Wojciech Śleszyński, and two other lectures, about children, Polish orphans saved from Sybir in 1920s by Paul Wojdak of Canada, and about reports on the Katyn murders by U.S. Captain Stewart that were ignored and swept under the rug by British government in the 1940s and 1950s, since the Soviet Union was Britain's ally.  


I started the reading from "What to Carry" - a lesson from my Mom, about escaping the war, since it could happen anytime to anyone... 


Picking leaves with Mom in the park. 1960s. 

≡ WHAT TO CARRY ≡

~ for my mother, Henryka Trochimczyk nee Wajszczuk (1929-2013) 

 

You never know when the war will come,

her mother said. You have to be ready.

Most things are unimportant.

You must take your gold, your family jewels.

Diamonds will buy you food. 

Gold will save your life. Forget silver, too heavy.

Take sturdy boots with two pairs of socks,

a warm, goose-down comforter on your back,

one picture, no books. Leave it all.

You will have to walk, sleep in a ditch, walk.

Pack lightly. What you carry, will protect you.

From starving, from freezing. That’s what matters.

Goose-down and gold. Hunger and snow.

 

She still has her goose-down coverlet,

useless in California. Her mother squished it

into a suitcase the first time she came to visit.

The down came from geese plucked decades ago

in Bielewicze, by her Grandma, Nina.

Diamonds? She sold her rings

to pay for the divorce, keep the house

with pomegranates and orange trees.

Her shoes are useless too —

a rainbow of high heels in the closet.


Another poem described the escape of my Grandfather Stanislaw with Grandma Maria Wajszczuk nee Wasiuk with my Mom and her brother Jerzy from Baranowicze on the even of New Year 1940, the last day of 1939. They took train towards the border, walked across snowy field, and were stopped on the other side. The person who robbed them actually was a German soldier who gave them a receipt for 295 gold coins and jewelry he took, Germany never honored this receipt after the war... The lesson from my mother at the end, though useful, was based on her false memory. She was just 10 years old when this traumatic escape took place.  No wonder she forgot details. The photo below is from Baranowicze in 1936 or so, a couple years earlier. 


≡ STARLIGHT ≡

 

The Soviets came in 1939.

They shot her uncle in the street,

and took his widow, Aunt Tonia,

with their two sons to Siberia. All in 24 hours.

 

Her father did not wait. He sold what he could.

They went through the “green border”

back to his family near Lublin.

Germans were not half as bad.

 

Two pairs — a parent, a child — walking quietly

in a single file through deep snow drifts.

Long shadows on the sparkling, midnight white.

The guide took them in a boat across the river Bug.

Smooth, black water between brilliant banks.

Twisted tree branches, turning.

 

The moon hid behind clouds.

Stars scattered.  On the other shore,

the guide told her to take off her coat.

He ripped out the lining, counted

the gold coins her mother had sown

into the seams.  He tore apart her teddy bear,

took the jewels from his belly.

 

I got frostbite on my cheeks and hands that night.

Look at the spots, she told her daughter. 

We had paid him already. You cannot trust

anyone, not anyone at all.

In addition to poems about lessons from my family history, I also wrote about some famous individuals, including Op-Art painter Julian Stanczak, who was deported to gulag, injured in the camp, released with Anders Army, in a displaced persons camp in Uganda, and ended up as a famous artist in America. 

With Stanczak's painting in the background.

≡ UNDER AFRICAN SKY ≡

     ~ for Julian Stanczak, gulag survivor, American painter (1928-2017)

 

    amber and coral

    ruby and carnelian

 

He looks at the brightness of the African sky.

The blazing sunset above the plains of Uganda

His eyes follow the pattern of light and shadow

on the savanna’s tall grass. Dark lines cut

into light on the flanks of a zebra —

he thinks of a donkey back home,

transformed by the extravagant, geometric

boldness of stripes, shining bright —

 

blinding his eyes, used to Siberian darkness

in dim interiors of musty prison huts —

he admires the play of gold and bronze inside

the tiger’s eye — a stone his teacher gave him

for protection and good luck. How it shifts

with each turn, different, yet the same —

lines upon lines of light.

 

The richness stays under his eyelids

as he twists and turns the tiger’s eye

in his one good hand, left — while the other,

a useless appendage, hangs limply

since the beating in a Soviet prison camp.

Shattered, like his dream of music,

the honey-rich tones of his cello.

 


He finds a different-flavored honey

in the richness of African sunsets,

the stripes of the tiger’s eye.  

 

He captures the undulating lines

and blazing hues on majestic canvas,

moving in the rhythm of wild planes

out of Africa, into fame.

 

amber and topaz

                 gold, bronze, and light

                                                 —    so much light  —

 

 

Letters from Dachau to Trzebieszow, 1941-1945.

The reading concluded with the title poem "The Rainy Bread" written after I saw letters from Dachau written by my Mom's uncle, Father Feliks Wajszczuk to my Great Grandmother Jozefa Wajszczuk, including a recipe for the  best bread to be put into packages... 

THE RAINY BREAD

                          ~ for Grandma Nina and Grandma Maria,

because they baked delicious bread

 

Even if it softened, it fell into the mud

you need to rinse the slice. When it dries out —

it can be eaten.

 

And this round, fragrant loaf,

which Grandma baked with sourdough?

One bread loaf for a week — it was the best

with cream and sugar crystals.

 

And this moist, whole-rye bread baked with honey?

Delicious with butter and — more honey.

After each bite, take a sip of cold milk.

 

And the war bread, made from leftover, dirty flour?

Worms removed through a sieve. With bran,

sawdust — even a pebble can be found

among grains of sand. But, there it is.

 

Finally, the bread from the parcels sent

to Father Feliks, Mom’s uncle in Dachau.

It’s so ugly —- no one would steal it.

Whole rye flour, thick slices saturated with lard —

Today we know: microelements and calories,

A guarantee of surviving five years of torture.

 

Give us today our daily bread

 

    the daily bread –

            the rainy bread –

                    the bread of life –

                                              bread


One more poem was read at the next session after lunch, before the panel discussion with the participation of dr Dmitryi Panto, whose family story inspired that poem.



≡ KAZAKHSTAN, 1936 ≡

 

~ for Dmitriy Panto and his Polish great grandparents

 

Expelled, deported, one day to pack. The Soviet rule.

Homes, orchard, farms, animals all left behind.


It was not fair. Why did they hate us?  Why did they lie?

They told us: “There are no winters in hot Kazakhstan.”

They told us: “You do not need warm clothes in hot Kazakhstan.”

They told us: “There is no salt in hot Kazakhstan.”

 

We brought the wrong things.

 

Our friends were taken up north, to a small village.

Posiolki, we used to call them.

The Kazakhs were kind. They helped them out,

gave them wool, sheepskin, old gloves.

 

We had to build our huts in a wide-open steppe.

Dig wells for water. Make bricks of mud.

Dry bricks in the fire. We did not have wood

for the fire. There were no trees to stop the sharp spikes

of wind from piercing our bodies, to keep sand

from hurting our eyes.

 

Old folks and babies died first. We persevered. We labored hard.

 

Only the evenings with howling winds.

Only the night skies with different stars.

Only the foreign sounds seeping into our mouths,

lilting with melodies of a new language merging

with our Polish, strangely frozen in Kazakhstan.  


A Polish field, Trzebieszow, June 2024


With conference Moderator Anna Pacewicz and Stefan Wisniowski from Australia, Kresy Siberia Foundation.


Conference Program is below; the second day included screenings of four films, but I only saw two, so that's homework to do later... 

 

GENERATIONS REMEMBER” 2024 in Białystok

 

Conference Program

with the Sybir Memorial Museum, Węglowa 1, Białystok

 

Friday

 

20 September

08:30 – 09:00

Registration, coffee and refreshments and Conference Welcome

 

09:00 – 09:30

 

 

09:30 – 10:30

 

Conference Welcome and an introduction to the Musuem’s new website, “Polish Cemeteries in Uzbekistan” - Professor Wojciech Śleszyński, Director of the Sybir Memorial Museum (Poland)

 

Session I: The Siberian Children of 1920, An Exploration of Memory – Paul Wojdak, Kresy-Siberia Member and author (Canada)

 

10:30 – 11:30

Session 2: A Short History of the Stewart & Van Vliet Jr MIS-X Code Letters Sent from Oflag 64 During 1943-44 Dave Stewart, son of Captain D. Stewart (US) 

 

 

11:30– 12:00

Session 3: Poems from Exile – Dr Maja Trochimczyk, Poet, Moonrise Press (USA)

 

12:00– 13:00

Lunch break: Restauracja Mozaika (note lunch is not included in the registration fee)

 

13:00 –14:30

 

 

 

 

14:30 –15:30

 

Session 4: International and inter-generational dimensions of history. The Muzeum as leader of International cooperation. – Professor Wojciech Śleszyński, Director of the Sybir Memorial Museum (Poland); Dr Dmitriy Panto, Museum of WWII (Poland); Stanley Urban, Kresy-Siberia Foundation (Poland). Moderated by Anna Pacewicz, Kresy-Siberia Foundation (Australia)

 

Session 5: How the Monument to the Fallen and Murdered in the East came to be General Leon Komornicki, Former deputy chief of the General Staff of the Polish Armed Forces, Poland; Chairman of the Board of the Fallen and Murdered in the East Foundation. Co-creator of the Monument to the Fallen and Murdered in the East (Poland)

 

15:30 – 15:50

Break and refreshments (coffee, tea, biscuits)

 

15:50 – 16:50

 

 

16:50 – 18:00

 

 

 

Session 6: Return to Kresy (Osada Korsuny) from a one-way trip to Archangel Stanley Urban, Kresy-Siberia Foundation (Poland)

 

Session 7: Myths and lies associated with the so-called "Repatriation. About the expulsion of Poles from the Borderlands during 1944-1946” – Thomas Kuba Kozłowski, Dom Spotkań z Historią (Poland)

 “Generations Remember” Conference and Reunion 2024 is organised by the Kresy-Siberia Foundation

with the support of the Sybir Memorial Museum, Białystok





Friday, August 30, 2024

Farewell to Debbie Kolodji - A Fantastic Poet, Expert Editor, and a Great, Kind and Wise Person


On 29 and 30 of August, 2024, the poetry community in Southern California said their farewells to Deborah P Kolodji, a friend of hundreds, inspiration and mentor of thousands.  The Memorial Mass featured many of her haiku and tanka, interspersed among prayers, and tributes by her three children, Kirk, Sean and Yvette and a poet-friend from Japan, Mariko Kitakubo.  Two weeks ago, the Southern California Haiku Study Group that she moderated honored her by a reading of her favorite poems, selected by SCHSG members.  Today, we heard a lot more of her poems, and could read her haiga, distributed on commemorative cards, with family photos on the reverse. 

Let's start this tribute to Debbie from her official biography: 

Deborah P Kolodji (1959-2024) was the California regional coordinator for the Haiku Society of America and moderator of the Southern California Haiku Study Group. The former president of the Science Fiction and Fantasy Poetry Association, Kolodji was also is a member of the Haiku Poets of Northern California, the Yuki Teikei Haiku Society, Haiku Canada, and the California State Poetry Society. She also served on the Board of Directors for Haiku North America.

Author of four chapbooks of poetry, her first full-length book of haiku and senryu is Highway of Sleeping Towns, from Shabda Press, which won a Touchstone Distinguished Book Award from the Haiku Foundation.  Her e-chapbook of scifaiku, tug of a black hole, won 2nd place in the Elgin Awards by the Science Fiction and Fantasy Poetry Association, and is available as a free download.

Kolodji published more than 1100 haiku in publications such as Frogpond, Modern Haiku, The Heron’s Nest, Bottle Rockets, A Hundred Gourds, Acorn, Rattle, and Mayfly, as well as speculative poetry in Strange Horizons, Star*Line, Grievous Angel, The Magazine of Speculative Poetry, Tales of the Unanticipated, Tales of the Talisman, and Dreams and Nightmares. She has also published short stories in Thema and Tales of the Talisman and a short memoir in Chicken Soup for the Dieter’s Soul. Her work has been anthologized in such publications as The Rhysling Anthology, Red Moon Anthology, Dwarf Stars, Aftershocks: Poetry of Recovery, New Resonance 4, and The Nebula Awards Showcase: 2015.

That was written before her Vital Signs - last book - was published. At the memorial tribute, I found out that she was a passionate traveler and managed to visit 43 of all U.S. states, as well as many national parks, with her favorites being ocean-side camping, so she could spend her mornings walking along the beach, admiring wildlife in the tidepools, and listening to the waves. The Grand Canyon postcard reproduced above was accompanied with photos from the many family trips to picturesque sites:


 Another of Debbie's passions was watching the Rose Parade in Pasadena every year, she staked out her spot, enjoyed the parade live and then went on to see the colorful floats in the park. For this year of the Dragon, she made a haiga card with a photo of one of the floats: 

the desire 

to spread our wings

Year of the Dragon

This card, too, had her photos from years of attending the parade on the reverse...

I first met Debbie when I started to participate in Poets on Site readings with Kath Abela Wilson and Rick Wilson. in 2008.  We went to art galleries, wrote poems inspired by artwork, and attended events with musicians and artists where our poems were read and everyone enjoyed the confluence of the arts.

Debbie and Rick Wilson at Bolton Hall Museum 2012.

Knowing of Debbie's expertise and her haiku publications I invited her several times to feature at Village Poets's monthly readings at Bolton Hall Museum in Tujunga. For her first appearance, on 26 August 2012, she was accompanied by Rick Wilson on the flute, and read, among others a haiku inspired by a flower, the same matilija poppy that I placed on the cover of Meditations of Divine Names  and anthology presented at the same reading.  

matilija poppies 

a skillet of fried eggs

on the campstove



This selection was quite a humorous commentary on the image I used for my book cover... The next, group reading brought a number of haiku poets to Bolton Hall Museum for "Thanks for Haiku" reading on the 27 November 2016. Debbie co-featured with Naia, and presented her first book, Highway of Sleeping Towns.  Two of the haiku she read were the most notable, the one that provided the book's title and one inspired by her walking on the beach and watching the life in the tide pools: 

 highway

of sleeping towns

the milky way

 morning tidepools - 

a hermit crab tries on

the bottle cap

 

Haiku poets at Bolton Hall Museum, November 2016.

The warm humor of the hermit crab image made this brief poem a favorite of many - it was featured during the memorial group reading in mid -August and again prominently and repeatedly cited during the memorial service. 

Debbie visited our community on 14 February 2017 for a reading of love poems at an exhibition of my rose photographs at our local bakery cafe - the Back Door Bakery in Sunland. I like her portrait against the backdrop of my roses:

Debbie reads love poems on 14 February 2017, Sunland.

Her next featured reading for us presented the Eclipse Moon anthology of Southern California Haiku Study Group, edited by William Scott Galasso. On 25 February 2018, at Bolton Hall Museum we enjoyed the two featured poets and many represented in the anthology. On that day, we both wore sapphire dresses and looked like sisters, in my favorite photo: 

Debbie and Maja, February 2018.

Willam Scot Galasso, Rick and Kathabela Wilson, Debbie Kolodji, Nancy Eisner, 
and Greg Longnecker at Bolton Hall Museum on 25 February 2018. 

Our meetings were limited to these group readings; I did not attend any of SCHSG workshops that somehow were held on the same days as my events of the Modjeska Club, neither did I go to the many field trips, again held on weekends when I was busy with my family.  But my respect for Debbie grew in time, seeing the incredible number of hours she invested in organizing poets together in the study group and the various events and conferences, such as annual holiday parties and annual anthology readings - held at Pacific Asia Museum and then, after its take over by USC, various church auditoria.  

I must say I would not have written many haiku, haiga, or haibun, if not for Debbie and the events she organized. I could not attend many of the annual gift exchange holiday parties in early January, though I made it to the last one, and we were caught on camera, smiling (January 2024):


I cherished the many haiku and haiga gifts from this party exchange, and myself brought three postcards, all about the Year of The Dragon, which is supposed to be a fantastic year for all of us, full of blessings and happiness:


with Sun in its crown
to outshine fear and hatred - 
the Dragon rises


courage, prosperity,
      kindness, generosity -
               Wood Dragon Blessings

Now that I read what I wrote, I think it should be "kindness, prosperity, / strength, generosity" - in any case, it is what it is, a  holiday greetings. But the attributes are definitely appropriate for Debbie.  To me, besides being an expert writer and editor, of immense erudition and wonderful skill with words, she was a very kind and patient person. Kindness and Wisdom are her two main characteristics... She never failed to remind me about deadlines for the annual anthology, and I wrote quickly. Then in 2022, knowing of my work as poetry publisher and California Quarterly Managing Editor, she invited me to work on the typesetting and design of the Haiku Group's anthology, Red Paper Parasols. It had a  number of editors, different for each section, but at the end, thanks to Debbie's steadfast support, it turned out all right. 

I picked a photo of a red paper parasol taken by one of the poets in Kyoto, Japan and mirrored it for the front and back covers. The anthology looked very good. 


In return for my volunteer work (I was asked by friends to decline the invitation, I was far too busy, but not too busy to say "No" to Debbie...), she agreed to edit the last issue of the California Quarterly for that year (Vol. 48, No. 4, Winter 2022) , picking a beautiful abstract image by Tiffany Shaw Diaz for the cover and carefully selecting poems.  In her editorial note for that she guest-edited, Kolodji wrote: 

"Guest editing California Quarterly has been an honor. As I read through submissions, I found myself entranced by many of the nature-infused images I discovered, reminding me of a quote by Mary Oliver from A Poetry Handbook: “I must make a complete poem—a river-swimming poem, a mountain-climbing poem. Not my poem, if it’s well-done, but a deeply breathing, bounding, self-sufficient poem.” There are many river-swimming, mountain-climbing, deeply breathing, bounding, self-sufficient poems in this issue, and I found myself walking by a lake and watching a cormorant, sunlight break through pine boughs, a moose on a hiking trail, seeing crocuses emerge from dirty snow, and floating in a cranberry bog."


She was a long-time member of the California State Poetry Society and her haiku graced many pages of the Quarterly, that will publish a tribute to her memory, with five haiku included in the CQ Vol. 50 No. 3 (Autumn 2024).  This information - Debbie involvement in Village Poets reading and in the CSPS publications may be surprising or irrelevant to haiku aficionados, but it just shows how different are impressions of the same person held by people that encountered her in different contexts.

There were many beautiful and touching poems read at the memorial tribute that included also references to her last book of poetry, Vital Signs (reviewed for CSPS Poetry Letter).   Its cover, of a condor hovering above the pale moon, was striking, with its haiku:


The memorial card with Debbie's full professional biography included a different haiga, appropriate to the end of life ceremony:



Indeed, Debbie left  us, going "away from all I've ever known" - and so many people came to mourn her passing...  She wrote: 

                                                my steps
                                                        your steps 
                                                                  morning sand

She loved classical music and many of her poems talk about its beauty:

                                            Chopin etude
                                            your fingers feel
                                            my sadness

  She also often wrote about the stars, and the vast expanse of the summer night sky:

                                                        summer quiet
                                                        the stars dare me
                                                        to count them

Finally, there was time for a farewell:

waning moon
the sea roars
a lullaby 

Her smiling portrait presided over the memorial Mass, next to Mother Mary. 



Her farewell was solemn and sincere; even the priest's homily included quotes from her poems. Afterwards friends gathered to talk about her, and enjoy the reunion. Again, she brought the poets together... 


Mariko Kitakubo and Ambika Talwar

Maja Trochimczyk, Mariko Kitakubo, Ambika Talwar


Mariko Kitakubo, Kathabela Wilson, and poets in hats

Maja and Kath Abela Wilson


California oaks and San Gabriel Mountains.